September 2002
"...medication can be extremely important for the treatment of depression, I hope I will not have to use it again.
I realise now how much it influenced me and how much it influenced my choice of spending time. You see, with extra 20mg serotonine in your brain you can be "friends" with almost anybody and you can do almost anything and find it "fun". When I look back at all the times when I took the medication I realise that i completely "wasted" that time. I stoped "thinking" or at least did not think the way I used to. There was no point to think, or - there was "no time" to. OK, I was more "sociable" but what was that worth... I have to admit it was easier "to be with people" but I am not talking here about any productive "being" which would contribute to anything or anyone beyond immediate consumption."
"...medication can be extremely important for the treatment of depression, I hope I will not have to use it again.
I realise now how much it influenced me and how much it influenced my choice of spending time. You see, with extra 20mg serotonine in your brain you can be "friends" with almost anybody and you can do almost anything and find it "fun". When I look back at all the times when I took the medication I realise that i completely "wasted" that time. I stoped "thinking" or at least did not think the way I used to. There was no point to think, or - there was "no time" to. OK, I was more "sociable" but what was that worth... I have to admit it was easier "to be with people" but I am not talking here about any productive "being" which would contribute to anything or anyone beyond immediate consumption."